I am so happy I got all the responces I did from you all. To anwser some of the questions floating. I really did take in all the advice. For those interested I called my Dr and I tested postive for BRAC 1 If I said that right. The down fall in all of this is ever since Chloe my daughter was born, 2 months later (this month) my medical coverage was canceled. I wont be able to have medical coverage again until after I marry my fiance. I have been getting clinical breast exams every six months since I was 18, They are talking about having a Breast MRI I started having Breast Ultrasounds since I was 20. I breastfeed my son till shortly before my daughter was born. I dont plan on stopping breastfeeding Chloe until she is a year old (or gets teeth)
My Fiance is a computer tech, lol so I know if I screw my computer up I can hand it to him. We have six computers in this house (its 700 square feet) so his work tak
es up
more of the house than my kids toys LOL.
Scott does really help out alot, and thats a good thing. However he works most of the day and we both are in college, so seeing each other is kinda hard. I havent had a date since my son was born LOL. We are paying for our wedding out of student loans.
Venting a little, I really wish my family was more supportive of me. I have overcome a lot some of which includes physical and sexual abuse. Some of which by my family there selves. I talked to my aunt after my uncle died and she goes'' We told the doctors to tell you, you couldnt have kids, because we thought you would be a horible mother and would kill them. " Getting further in that she goes "When you where growing up we thought you were full of crap saying that you wanted to graduate highschool, go to college, move out and get a job after you graduated highschool with honnors and you went to orentation thats why your mo
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dragged you out because you would have failed and we knew you would never keep a job down" They even thought I would never find a guy, they thought I was this most stupid person. They thought ADHD ment I had downsyndrom. I am a strait A student even in college, I canceled my SSI after I moved to michigan just so I could prove to my self I could make it on my own. All my family knew was how to use me and abuse me, and now when I tell someone in my family about me testing postive and explaining how im
scared. She says " well if you get it and die, you will make the world a happier place"
That hurts me, I bust my butt off to try to make it. I was diagnosed with ADHD since I was 4 and I was in a trial study of anti depressants in ADHD patients. I currently am taking no anti depressants, I am a mother, I am getting married. I had a 10,000 saving account I saved up for my wedding since I Was little I mean little
because
I dreamed of this day, and my aunt spent it on a car.
Ok sorry for the venting im still really upset. ITs great to find support in a group that my family lacks. I am 21 and its sad ive been looking for acceptance all my life.
~Mandie
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